Nursing was hard for about a week --and then it got easy. I had an over abundance of milk -even as a SAHM, I could pump 10 ounces every morning, without fail. My freezer supply was amazing, my son's weight gain was astonishing, and my assumption was that making it to my twelve month goal wouldn't be hard at all. Then came the teeth. And the nursing strikes. And the depression. And my weight loss. And then Wynn's weight loss. And then a frightened doctor and a sobbing mama and the first bottle of formula ever, ten months in. There were 4AM pumping sessions with 3 ounces of output -not enough to sustain my son while I worked twice a week, or to give him extra bottles when he was tugging his ears in agony and not patient enough for a letdown. There were pep talks, lactation consultants, and reminders again and again and again that FED IS BEST! And they were true. But we've kept trucking on our breastfeeding journey. And we've kept pumping. Some mornings, I only get 3 ounces. Some afternoons, the kid's teething pain just won't let him latch and he gets a bottle. But this morning, I threw a bag of milk into the freezer and counted up almost enough bottles to make it to the end of the school year -give or take. And I smiled. Because God is kind. And my kid is fed. And we only have 6 more weeks to go to make our goal, and we're trusting God for everyday leading up to June 6 and every day after. Nursing isn't equally important to all mamas. And it's not of primary importance to this one. But when PPD is kicking your tail, every little victory counts. 10 months of nursing my jellybean down -and the last one has been the hardest by far. But I think I can I think I can I think I can... #pbabyandj
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  • jasminelholmesNursing was hard for about a week --and then it got easy. I had an over abundance of milk -even as a SAHM, I could pump 10 ounces every morning, without fail. My freezer supply was amazing, my son's weight gain was astonishing, and my assumption was that making it to my twelve month goal wouldn't be hard at all. Then came the teeth. And the nursing strikes. And the depression. And my weight loss. And then Wynn's weight loss. And then a frightened doctor and a sobbing mama and the first bottle of formula ever, ten months in. There were 4AM pumping sessions with 3 ounces of output -not enough to sustain my son while I worked twice a week, or to give him extra bottles when he was tugging his ears in agony and not patient enough for a letdown. There were pep talks, lactation consultants, and reminders again and again and again that FED IS BEST! And they were true. But we've kept trucking on our breastfeeding journey. And we've kept pumping. Some mornings, I only get 3 ounces. Some afternoons, the kid's teething pain just won't let him latch and he gets a bottle. But this morning, I threw a bag of milk into the freezer and counted up almost enough bottles to make it to the end of the school year -give or take. And I smiled. Because God is kind. And my kid is fed. And we only have 6 more weeks to go to make our goal, and we're trusting God for everyday leading up to June 6 and every day after. Nursing isn't equally important to all mamas. And it's not of primary importance to this one. But when PPD is kicking your tail, every little victory counts. 10 months of nursing my jellybean down -and the last one has been the hardest by far. But I think I can I think I can I think I can... #pbabyandj
  • mrsevanpetzoldtSince getting pregnant with my second, my supply has dropped significantly and I've had to use formula as well. Definitely not what I had planned, but baby is growing and happy, so yes, fed is best!
  • hannahhagartyHugs, mama. You are so right, fed and loved is best and clearly your little dude is thriving with both! Praying for the PPD. I've been there and it is totally rotten.
  • christinaparker09PPD, is kicking mine this time around. I'm 7 months postpartum with my fourth baby. This road to motherhood has been full of miscarriage, depression and joy. Praying for you now, sister.
  • christinaparker09@christinaparker09 when I say this journey, I'm referring to my own.
  • mandylovesericGirl, I can so relate to this. We've started having to give Kuyper formula some as well. Something I never had to do with Lyric. It was hard, but he's happy and getting fed. You're doing a great job momma.
  • kiara.camiThank you for sharing your struggle! As a mother/baby RN I appreciate your openness which, God willing, will help another mom to be honest about what she's experiencing. PPD is real and unfortunately not discussed enough. Absolutely praying for you, sister!
  • cameronturnervernonYou can do it!
  • ohrestlessbird💜💜💜
  • kelsytappOhhhh amen friend!! I'm at 11 1/2 months for my daughter! 2-3 weeks left!
  • freedspiritphotographyThank you for being transparent! Hugs and prayers for you on your journey!!
  • mblanchard7Lol... Scrolling through my feed fast and this one caught my eye.👀 I was like... Hey, who in my feed is cutting up bags of drugs and posting about it??? 🙃
  • mercymemoProud of you for sticking through it and grateful for God's grace in providing!
  • jasminelholmes@mblanchard7 I'd be rich enough to hire a real photographer to run my instagram! 😂
  • fruit.of.her.hands.sdgGod is indeed so good ❤️🌈
  • thisjoyoushomeGod is so gracious. I work outside of the home one day a week (just ONE) and it takes me all week to pump enough milk for that one day. God is so faithful. Some days I have just what I need TO THE OUNCE. I know I may have to transition to formula soon (I'm terrified)
  • thisjoyoushomeEsp because my first son was breastfed exclusively for 15 months. But God has been so near and even when I'm up pumping two ounces at 2 am, I am so thankful.
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