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  • dearjennaWeek Two. #2017positivity
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    I've been thinking about what I can take away from last year and move forward with this year. Where do I see myself professionally? What am I doing personally? Who did I think I was going to be at 26 when I was 16?
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    The most I can say is what I learned from a TED Talk from @coollike: I don't owe my past self anything.
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    Who knows if my 16 year old, anxious and depressed (but didn't know it), incredibly insecure, fumbling over herself, teenage catastrophe would have cared at all about who I am and what I'm doing now? I don't have the same ideals. I am not published in the New Yorker (yet?). I am not even still in Georgia.
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    But there are a lot of things that have happened in my life that are so much better. I work at Microsoft doing something that - even on my most frustrating days - I really love, with people I love. I am married to my best friend, a guy who I don't have to constantly work at getting along with or being with. We're just together and it's natural. I may not be published where I "dreamed" of being, but I have a running Xbox blog with a best friend and co-worker, and I am 35,000 words deep in a fiction novel, and constantly working on my New Journalism nonfiction pieces. I am healthy. I am happy. And on days like today, when I have to wake up at 7:45 a.m. for a dentist appointment, it gives me an excuse to go get coffee and a sandwich at my favorite places afterward, and I am reminded about how much I love this little town/city/thing that I live in. The roads and sidewalks are often very clean, pedestrians are everywhere with friends, kids or dogs, and I can safely go walking from the dentist to those downtown shops I love in the morning and have a trip like this one. It's a disgusting little postcard waiting to happen.
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    I am where I'm supposed to be, and I love where I am. And if my 16 year old self wouldn't be okay with that, maybe there's a reason she and I don't talk anymore. I've learned so much about myself and coexisting in this world, and the other day I realized I'm really close to 30, and that was a new, weird and cool feeling to have. I'm not that teenage catastrophe anymore.

  • jew_withcatYou're beautiful and I looked up to you so much in college. I'm so glad to see you're doing wonderfully. 💕💕
  • dearjenna@jew_withcat omg I'm blushing no. You did? I felt like I was all over the place when you met me, haha. I'm glad I kept it together for you! I miss you, beautiful girl.
  • jenchandlerwashereYou beautiful soul! I cannot tell you how much this spoke to me today. I've been battling some "past demons" lately and I love what you said: I owe my past self nothing. I'd go further and say, "I owe no one from my past anything." We grow. We learn. We breathe and expand and here we are - you and me - where we need to be. Not where our younger self thought we'd be. Where we need to be. Oh, thank you! Keep at those essays and that novel. I look forward to reading them all one day 💕
  • dearjenna@jenchandlerwashere Thank youuuu! I want you to know that I've always admired you. As a kid, as an adult. I think my Mamma's love for you greatly influenced that. Leave the past behind you. Grow. 💕💕💕💕
  • crystallinecinemaWell said. Amen.
  • jenchandlerwashere@dearjenna And now I'm crying happy, happy tears. Love you, Dear.
  • nowherenomadYou are my special and favorite peanut-butter eating red-headed nerd! Hugs from S Ga (again)!
  • dearjenna@nowherenomad I MISS YOUUUUU 😘😘😘
  • nowherenomad@dearjenna dittoooooooooo
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