Tonight did not go as expected. There was no park. No pictures. No tiny bows, no coordinated outfits. No priceless family memories recorded with a backdrop of fall foliage. 
What there was? An ER. A lot of waiting. Some inconclusive tests. A trip to the grocery store for medicine and BRAT diet staples. 
There was worry and compassion...but you know what else there was? Selfishness. And annoyance. As I sat next to my husband, trying to be patient as they searched for the cause of his stomach pain, I worried about him. But I also cared a lot about me. All the work I had done. All the plans I had made. How tired I was. And how just stinkin' mad I was that my night was ruined. 
Ugh. That is some ugliness right there. 
I vowed to be with him "in sickness", but thankfully he also vowed to be with me "for worse". Tonight we saw a little bit of both. And it reminded me how thankful I am for a God who heals our broken bodies and our sinful hearts.
{dustin is doing ok. Still has pain but the doctor ruled out anything serious, gave him some meds to help, and is hopeful he'll feel better in the next couple of days.}
#showyourreal #bowdensinlove
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  • bowdenismsTonight did not go as expected. There was no park. No pictures. No tiny bows, no coordinated outfits. No priceless family memories recorded with a backdrop of fall foliage.
    What there was? An ER. A lot of waiting. Some inconclusive tests. A trip to the grocery store for medicine and BRAT diet staples.
    There was worry and compassion...but you know what else there was? Selfishness. And annoyance. As I sat next to my husband, trying to be patient as they searched for the cause of his stomach pain, I worried about him. But I also cared a lot about me. All the work I had done. All the plans I had made. How tired I was. And how just stinkin' mad I was that my night was ruined.
    Ugh. That is some ugliness right there.
    I vowed to be with him "in sickness", but thankfully he also vowed to be with me "for worse". Tonight we saw a little bit of both. And it reminded me how thankful I am for a God who heals our broken bodies and our sinful hearts.
    {dustin is doing ok. Still has pain but the doctor ruled out anything serious, gave him some meds to help, and is hopeful he'll feel better in the next couple of days.}
    #showyourreal #bowdensinlove

  • sophia.mullisSo glad he is ok!!! Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing this. ❤️ it's a great reminder
  • epatw.rnUgh! Feel better! And sending peaceful thoughts your way!
  • saroyI know this feeling. It may be the "for worse" side but it is still honest and real. Thanks for sharing -- and glad your husband is feeling ok!!
  • amdavis2to5Thanks for being so real. God is SO GOOD.
  • rpanyonAww man. Sorry about all of it - stinks that Dustin isn't feeling well and that the pictures didn't happen. Prayers for a quick recovery and another shot at pictures!
  • markbatkeAmen! Love you guys.
  • craftypBeen there. Praying for you guys!
  • stewartfamof05Praying for Dustin. I love your honesty. I love how real you are with yourself and others. You are amazing. Love you both
  • boolaWow...ugly but so real. Thank u for sharing. I needed to be reminded of our vows as we try to navigate the new normal of 3 little people. Praying Dustin feels better too. ❤️
  • mischaboltonAmen! Prayers for both of you!
  • kass1raeI hope Dustin is doing better today and thank you for sharing because I am affronted with my own selfish every day and it's nice to know that I am not alone and women I admire have their moments too 😘
  • thespottedmamaOh friend(s)!!! So sorry to hear about your night and always love your heart in reflection. 💗
  • kellylaineBe kind to your amazing self! Sending healing vibes to Dustin. ❤️
  • snopik5Wow this hits home but you said it out loud! Thank you for sharing how real life is. Hope Dustin is feeling better soon.
  • kelfish23Prayers for you both!
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